Sometimes being a mom is wonderful, rewarding, and makes my heart happy.
Sometimes being a mom is really, really hard. Today was one of those days.
Now that the older boys are in school it's just me and this little man. He is such a sweet boy, and has a good heart, but dang it, this almost 2 year old kid is stubborn. He knows exactly what he wants, and doesn't have any words to say it. And some days we struggle through the entire day. Like today.
He got up way too early and threw his breakfast on the floor. And then his lunch. And yep, his dinner. He took about a 45 minute nap and woke up screaming. After two hours of tantrums at baseball tonight, I got his screaming little body out of the tub, fought to get his pajamas on, and put him in bed with his favorite quilt. Then I closed the door and took a deep breath.
Sometimes when being a mom is really hard I look around at all the other moms and wonder how they do it all so well. I wonder if their child opens a granola bar just to squish it into the rug. Or why their child isn't laying in the dirt throwing a fit. Or if they are ready to pull all their hair out at any point in the day. Because I am.
Today I didn't come here to talk about quilting or to show any pretty pictures, I just wanted to say that sometimes being a mom is really hard for me. Also, my house is a disaster and my baby boy's dinner is still on the floor. If tomorrow you have a day like I had today, I just wanted you to know that.
And that I love this boy and his brothers more than anything in the world. I'm so thankful to be their mom. Even on a day like today.
We'll try again tomorrow.